THE FUTURE BECKONS

You know what amazes me? Its the thought of how much we have grown up. From being creeped out at just the thought of being alone in the house, crossing our fingers and praying to god in case of a blackout to managing our homes, budgets and our life, we have come a long way. And can you guess what scared me most...it was the idea of travelling alone in a train or a plane and I know I could have braved watching exorcist alone at the age of 12 rather than travelling alone at the age of 18.

Then, we grew up a little more and entered the last 2 years of our schooling. We laughed, we cried and we screamed but we stayed just the same at heart. Just yesterday it seems we were preparing to give board exams which were more important to everybody than life itself. Heaven behold if you scored less than an 80 in any subject. And now WHAM! Back to the present. Its 3 years later and some of us are on the verge of becoming graduates.

There are people, in fact our ex-class mates, who were our comrades in arms in those very boards, who are actually getting married. married... can you believe that. I have to admit that it would scare the living daylights out of me if somebody mentioned marriage seriously to me. I would probably have a nervous breakdown and I am sure my friends would too (in fact I am pretty confident that they would not hesitate to have me shipped out of the country if only to save me from the dark pit of matrimony). Anyway, they are sure of the future they have chosen and are content with their choices.

Then there are those who are not getting married but they too are sure of their future which rests on their career for which they have worked really hard. They know what they want out of life and work to get it with plans which are well executed by them.

And then there is me. I dont want to get married( it gives me the creeps) and I am not really sure of the future too. I have gone with the flow and have chosen the path which came along and guess what? I found I was happy with it. Yes, there are doubts and a sense of insecurity but you know what. I have faith. I have faith in god and I have faith in me that together we can make this work. I can make something of my life with the choices that I have made and eventually it will all work out for the best.

So, no fear...and be there with me...

lot of love...

$alOni...:):)